Thursday, December 31, 2009

Day 1: 30 Days with Jillian Michaels

Holy-effing-shit Jillan Michaels is evil. I had to modify the MODIFIED positions in the level 1 workout for pansies!

I feel so much like puking I had to come sit on the porch to eat my cornflakes and cool off more.

Not. Funny. One. Bit.

She even yells at you at the spots where she knows you are thinking "fuck this."

Very creepy.

Ate way too healthy of a lunch. Jillian sucks.

She keeps screaming in my head "you don't get those abs for free!"

I am thinking the $7.99 plus tax I paid at Costco for this fresh hell is bullshit.

Regardless, I am going to finish.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Little Monkey Says

Recently, I became acutely aware of the wisdom contained in the little body that her soul inhabits. After picking up monkeys from all parts in which they were scattered across the kingdom, we were howling in laughter over some nerd based joke no one else would probably get. The specifics of it escape me and it was not so much that we make strange nerd jokes or references most people wouldn't understand, it was her REACTION to such:

Queen: Geeze, we are so weird.

Little Monkey: We aren't weird, we are special.

(further big belly laughs in the car)

So, apparently weird time has taken up so much time that now we are classified altogether differently. I think this is good right? I try to foster a sense of wonder and imagination, even in our highly cynical and scientific household. We enjoy each other’s company and preserve our family tradition as well as Fort Knox was once guarded.

Man, it's a good day to be a mom!

If this is as good as it gets, why even have an election? | News |

If this is as good as it gets, why even have an election? | News |

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


I finally got around to starting the picture load from pride parade. Eventually they will make it on my Facebook and if I can figure out how to tweet them, will do that too. Just have to say, this is definitely a queen after my own heart:

And I am a ridiculously open minded person but WTF is this:

The crowds are always fun:

And bless the best boyfriend in the world who loves my monkeys and my crazy friends...MUAH!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

59 Degrees


Sorry, just slightly excited at the dip in temperature considering that we have had oppressive, too close to the equator type hotness going on for so long (which of course was followed by 40 days and 40 nights of rain). I am happy to grab a sweatshirt and cook something yummy.

Speaking of which, this is the perfect time for a new recipe! I just finished Julie & Julia which was marvelous, made me laugh outloud and definitely inspired me to try a Julia Child recipe of my own. I picked the Potage Parmentier which I have decided is AH-MAZING since monkeys of all varieties went back for seconds. Super easy is also big in my book.

Also, if you are one of those that likes to snuggle inside during this time of year, can I beg you to get on the True Blood bandwagon? Well, for this reason, and this reason and I suggest this reason. Is that enough?

I am off to clean something. Probably a closet if it doesn't try to suffocate me first.

Happy Fall!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

How time flies...

It's hard to believe that time has passed so quickly this year. There were many times I didn't think I would ever say that and they would just go on forever. If you didn't join me in the beginning, here is the story of the Princess of Frogs, Toads and all creatures that Hop. Little monkey is growing fast and I am so lucky I get to be here to see it!

So to begin another school year with Little Monkey, here is the next installment of her alter ego:


In a very hot place, in a tiny house, Emma Delaney was staring out of the window watching the rain fall on the rocks outside her back door. It had been raining for hours, but still it was hot, and she didn’t like that, not one bit.


Emma, ruler of frogs, toads and all creatures that hop, looked over to see who had made the slightly disgusted sigh. At the next window she saw Darby. Darby was a grumpy old soldier that much preferred a good fight to little girls any day. He was standing on his back legs with his front legs on the window sill, surveying the same wet situation as she. Darby liked to stand on his back legs and remind everyone that he was half Meercat and half actual cat. Emma had a bad habit of enjoying the sport of teasing Darby any chance she could (which is probably why he didn’t have much of a taste for little girls, or princesses for that matter.)

“Hello Darby. What brings you to the window today?”

Darby glanced in her direction and then looked back outside.

“I am rather cross at the weather we are having. This certainly isn’t good for practicing my hunting or paw to paw combat skills. How a great warrior is to maintain his prowess in mess like this is just beyond me.”

Emma thought it was funny that he was always so grumpy. He really should be living with Old Toad, if he could stand the smell, as their personalities are remarkably similar.

“Darby, you look like a kangaroo when you stand like that.”

“What?” he yelled and got down on all fours. “What did you call me?”

“A kangaroo, they stand up like that, like you just did. I think it’s funny.”

“Look at this!” He turned to show Emma his big hairy grey bottom. “Look at this Emma Delaney; do you see a big, fat tail? In fact, do you see a tail at all?”

He was right; he had hardly any tail since the half actual cat part of him was Manx.

“I apologize Darby. You are right; you do not look like a kangaroo from behind.”

“Thank you. I would not want to be confused with a silly hopper such as a kangaroo.”

Emma smiled when he said this. Certainly he had not yet met Kiwi, the silliest hopper in the entire kingdom. She wanted to make him feel better so thought she would have him do what all soldiers like to do, talk about themselves.

“Sir Darby, half Meercat and half actual cat, tell me a story about one of your battles. Surely it will help pass the time on this very rainy day.”

"Emma, ruler of frogs, toads and all creatures that hop, that is the best idea you have had. Come over here and sit and I will tell you about the day I fought the twin ninjas from the House of Masa.”

He motioned over to a big, poofy chair with too many pillows and jumped on the seat. Emma squeezed in beside him. She decided not to tell him that he should really reconsider the size of his bottom since he thought it couldn’t possibly be as big as a kangaroos.

“It was late one afternoon, after I had put down the troll uprising of ’07 and I had stopped for a break at my favorite desert oasis. I had a bit of water, some very odd flavored chips and spent some time smoothing my fur back down. That uprising is another story entirely. Never give a troll apples is all I will say! Anyway, I decided to sleep for a bit under a tree and had barely dozed off when I hear the most awful shrieking. I opened my eyes in enough time to see twin black actual cat ninjas leaping towards me from the tree above.”

“What was odd about them?” Emma asked.

“What?” Darby responded, off track and quite confused.

“You said the chips had an odd flavor. Why was it odd?”

“Good grief Emma Delaney! I am getting attacked by twin actual cats and you are only interested in details of my meal?”

“Sorry Sir Darby, I was just a little hungry.”

“Very well. They were cilantro or dill or some such nonsense, very green and smelled like grass which is why I was interested in the first place. I know grass and those chips were not made from grass it turns out. Anyway, follow along now Emma. Twin ninjas, leaping, are you listening little girl?” He looked over at her and she sat up, straightening her fairy dress.

“Yes sir, I am listening.”

“So these cats were screaming ‘woo hoo’ and ‘yee haw’ and landed on the sand in front
of me. I wasn’t sure what to do but with my fast soldier skills, I jumped up on all fours and then stood on my back legs to show them my size and scare them with the evil eye.”

“Not the evil eye?” Emma looked so worried, leaning in and whispering in his ear.

“Yes, Emma Delaney, the very scary, double whammy, evil eye that I learned while in India training with the army of Madras. Funny little creatures in plaid shorts, you would like them I think. Any way, I am up on my back legs, giving the evil eye and they stop, right in their tracks.”

“They were scared?” Emma asked, still whispering.

“It was actually a case of mistaken identity. What might have been an unfortunate set of circumstances turned out to be remedied by my years of military training. They introduced themselves, Harvey de Masa and Jack de Masa, and they were from a far away place called Grapevine. Their mother was a fierce warrior and had passed on her ninja skills but it was no match for my evil eye. Harvey, who was rather large compared to his brother, agreed that they would never again mistake me for the bandit that they had been searching for. They showed me their hiding techniques and I gave them their first evil eye lesson. Keep your enemies close as they say.”

“Who was the bandit they sought?”

“A long fur covered one with rings on his fluffy tail and he wears a mask. They say he is the smartest of all bandits. I hope only one day I am privileged enough to face such a foe.”

”You are very brave Sir Darby. I am glad you live in my kingdom. I think we are much safer with you here.” Emma stood up to give him a curtsey and a bow in respect.

“Thank you Emma, ruler of frogs, toads and all creatures that hop.” Darby jumped down and responded with a similar bow.

“Your story made me hungry. Would you like to share some chips with me?” Emma asked.

“I would be honored Princess, as long as they are not green.” Darby and Emma got their favorite cheese flavored nuggets and went out back to sit on a rock. The clouds were clearing and the rain stopped splashing down.

“I like rainy days Darby. I like when you tell stories.”

“I like that too, Emma Delaney, I like that too.”

The End

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Summer Songs

A little bit of sun today,
Sparkle down to light the way.

Happy songs float along,
With the flamboyant cardinal song.

Breeze is warm and lumbers here,
Against the skin that’s gold and bare.

Summer winds gently down,
Pushing me through the quiet sounds.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

My Little Man

so tiny

full of promise

laughter filled love

red hair for no reason

fascination with creatures

picking them up as he goes

innocently holding them

just to have them in his pocket

so grown now

days and minutes from adulthood

knows everything

and mom loves him any way

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

FYI Bitches: Ryan Reynolds does NOT belong to you!

Summer is finally winding down and I am dusting off the cobwebs. Monkeys are returning from parts near and far so I have to get back to some regular patterns. I will inform you in advance; I won’t be waxing poetic today or giving some long monologue on a well thought out subject. No, the Queen’s glorious return post-summer break is about one thing and one thing only:

Screaming little girls that think Ryan Reynolds is hot piss me off.

::insert evil laugter here::

Far be it from me to argue that point but this is what it’s about...(sample conversation inserted for illustrative effects).

Random Idiot: OMG, Ryan Reynolds is so freakin hot, I just can’t BELIEVE it.

QOTU: Yeah, he’s funny too. Two Guys, A Girl and A Pizza Place is one of my favorite shows ever. I am thinking I need to buy it on DVD.

Random Idiot: WTF? Ryan Reynolds was never on TV, he’s a MOOOOOVVVIEEEE star, what are you talking about? Stupid old lady, ha ha ha.

QOTU: ::shoots IMDB lightning bolts all over said idiot faster than she can say ‘what’s IMDB?’::

Come on, he is NOT the new thing. He even kicked vampire butt before it was cool…now everyone is doing it. (Side note here, I am also RIDICULOUSLY addicted to True Blood but that’s another blog).

You can spend money going to see him and drool over his pictures, but I am sorry, you don’t get to carry the official Ryan Reynolds card. Those are reserved for us that know he is more than a pretty face but happily embrace his right to take his clothes off any time he pleases.

On a Comic Con side note, I could care less if he and Scarlet are fighting, I don’t really care for her anyway (sorry Scott), but dude, check this out…I am stoked!

Peace out!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

My moon

My smiling moon,

Speaks through the veil,

You are here, you are loved, you are alive.

My smiling moon,

Sauntering across the darkness,

Reminding me I am small, I am grateful, I am alive.

My smiling moon,

Hides behind the trees as the sun begins its chase,

Good morning, welcome, breathe.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Bad Monkey

***door bell rings, loud barking dogs follow***

Little Monkey: Who is it?

QOTU: No one.

Little Monkey: No one is out there?

QOTU: Not any more. Might have been the Mormons.

Little Monkey: Oh that is so cool, we got ding-dong-ditched!

QOTU: How do you even know what that is? You aren't old enough.

Little Monkey: Duh mom. Someone rings your doorbell and then runs away. (turns back to finish video game in disgust)

I SWEAR I was older before I knew what that was and pretty sure I never talked about it to my parents. Oh the days of being oblivious!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

What's up Dalllllaaaassss? Are you ready to Rock?

I admit to being a music nerd. Okay, okay, a sci-fi nerd, a movie nerd, a history nerd, well and the list goes on. Suffices to say, I am pretty decent on some Trivial Pursuit catagories and can kick Scene It ass like you just don't even know.I am an original music pirate. I can remember sitting many hours in front of a radio, cassette tape recorder in hand, trying to get a better and more complete recording of Rapper’s Delight. I squirreled away every quarter I could until I had enough for my first album, Off The Wall. Man, those were the days.

I have been doing the concert thing for a long time, since well, I am pretty freaking old. My first concert was when I was 16, to see The Boss for Born in the USA. It was in a soccer stadium in Frankfurt, West Germany in the 80s. I can't in retrospect, even describe what that was like. I have been to some disappointing ones (ZZ Top in Germany) and some stellar ones (Green Day and surprisingly, Jonas Brothers both in Dallas) so I have a wide range of memories to choose from. Tonight was impressive even by those standards and one was a band I never heard of. Yeah really. All Time Low. Cute kids but tons of polish and man, the lead knows how to shake his money maker. They had everyone in the crowd moving and yelling. Everyone. Seriously even old people. I haven't seen someone work a room like that since the last time I was in a room with Billy Joe. Really cool stuff. Cobra Starship is an experience. If you haven't seen them, you need to SEE them, not just hear a CD. They are a multi-cultural, multi-influence fun fest. And OMG. I never get enough muther fuckin Snakes on a muther fuckin Plane. And then, what seperates the men from the boys, the amatures from us music of all kind lovers. 50 Cent. Vitamin Water genius. I think I might pee myself. In retrospect that would have been less painful but today as I run through the required tasks, noticing my sore muscles from all the jumping up and down. Totally worth it though. Middle Monkey was mortified because I told her that I was going to start yelling "I love Vitamin Water!" when he came on stage. I thought it would be funny. She didn't agree. Fall Out Boy was great as usual and I have long loved their socially conscious message. Pete is an experience to behold and though had many great quotes to share, I have settled on my favorite. When speaking of true love, he comments "true love will follow you to Hell. True love will follow you, get hot, get naked and have a dance party with you."

I don't care who you are, that's good shit. LOL

If you have a choice this year between a CD and live tickets, pick the live show and remind yourself how great is to feel passionately about something. Now if I can find a way to squeeze in the Beastie Boys, my life would be complete! LIFE IS GOOD!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


Whew! I am freakin' exhausted. Many apologies to the great and powerful Ginga. I am glad I was missed. However I do recall mentioning the love of my life was headed my way...::still floating on air::

I missed a lot, where to begin? Monkeys have been keeping me busy with Spring Break and such. Little Monkey fancies herself a mini-Robin Hood so that has been great fun!
Judgemental Monkey has an honest to goodness real deal drivers licence and Middle Monkey is working on it. Silly Monkey visited for Easter and there still doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day no matter how old they get. We fed wild animals

and tracked dinosaurs and all together had way too much fun in just a month or two (okay, like you can have too much fun).

I started a new job at a cool place that might as well be a museum for all the cool stuff I get to check out. Finally a place that I don’t hate working…I hope that lasts!

So much in the news we haven't talked about:

OCTO-MOM My mom told me if you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything. For now I am sticking with that at least until I do one of those postings all by itself.

WOW I am not sure if this weird cool on a nerd level or just weird.

AWESOME I am learning to play just so I can win the lotto and play here.

BOO HISS I am seriously deficient in my Star Wars trivia as I didn’t know this story nor that there are now nuggets that share the name.

FINALLY A little progress is always refreshing, even if it doesn’t necessarily help me.

So, there you go. Little Monkey is drawing cartoons so as soon as I can figure out how to turn those into tee shirts, I will be doing that too. Funny freakin’ stuff I tell you.

And speaking of funny, by some of the most amazing people I have had the pleasure of knowing, kinda Bevis meets Clerks. Check them out and pass the link on if you dig it.

Blech. I keep coming back to this template…idk why. I know how much RR loves when I mix it up a bit.

I’m back, happy?

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Make a list

I have covered this before, here and here. It helps you process stuff and set goals. If you don't want to try it my way, 43 Things is a good way to do it with encouragement and support.

Check it out:

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm an
Extroverted Self-Knowing Believer

Monday, February 9, 2009

God Bless Australia

Christ, I wish there was more that I could do...I feel helpless. I haven't even gotten a chance to visit on my dream vacation and climb the bridge but it's hard to sit back and watch. I am lucky to know folks down under and my prayers go out to you all. I am reposting below an email with ways to help I got from one of my discussion groups. Please send it out to anyone you know that would like to help.


It has been bought to the attention of moderators by some members
that they would like to see an appeal for goods, donations etc for
the people that have directly been affected by these tragic fires, in
which hundreds of people have lost their homes, livelihoods, stock,
pets and sadly many have lost their lives, or are battling in
hospital with horrific burns.

So the question then becomes how can we as members help out in this
great time of need, with an aftermath never before seen, where
support will be needed for weeks and perhaps many months to come to
help people rebuild their lives.

The best way to donate is through the RedCross Bushfire Appeal. To
donate to the Red Cross State Government Victorian Bushfire Appeal
Visit www.redcross.
Phone 1800 811 700
Any NAB, ANZ, Westpac or Commonwealth Bank branch
Any Bunnings store
By direct deposit to the Victorian Bushfire Relief Fund - BSB 082-
001, Account number 860-046-797
Myer Bushfire Appeal
All proceeds to the Salvation Army. Donate at any Victorian Myer

Please make a contribution, no matter how big or small every dollar
will help.

Family Hotline = 1800 727 077

Bushfire Info = 1800 240 667
The SES emergency number is 132 500
South Australian Country Fire Service information hotline is 1300
362 361.

For New South Wales:

The New South Wales Rural Fire Service information hotline is 1800
679 737.
If you live in any of the affected areas and you have any suspicions
about someone having lit one of these fires..please contact the
police and let them know.
You can ring anonymously via crime stoppers on 1800 333 000

Another place if your looking for family or friends is: /ind...018720, 00.html

If you are looking for loved ones or having trouble locating family
members, post a message here and we will keep publishing requests
and responses through the day.

http://blogs. victoria/ --or.html

I did hear that VIC is requesting urgent blood donors. They need
anyone who hasn't donated in the last 6 months. If any VIC people
are interested in doing this. http://www.redcross to find out

If not involved stay off the roads and out of the affected areas.
Also stay off the CFA and DSE website - an alternative is to check
out a twitter relay of the CFA updates -
http://twitter. com/cfa_updates? page=1

The Salvation Army is accepted donations for fire victims

Toiletries - (soap, toothbrushes, toothpaste, razors, shampoo,
deodorants, sanitary pads and tampons), underclothes, bedding are
urgently needed. Please do not donate perishables, they may not make
it to those in need fast enough. Nappies, formula, bottles etc for
babies, clean soft toys for toddlers, good wearable clothes. If you
wouldnt wear it because its too old, ripped or stained etc, please
do not donate it. You will only waste volunteers time in having to
get rid of them.

As people find homes, they will need good clean mattresses (if you
wouldnt sleep on it, don't donate it!), beds, chairs, tables, chests
of drawers, wardrobes will be needed. But please allow for the fact
that the Salvation Army may not be able to transport these larger
items to those in need if you are too far away, so check with your
local Salvation Army first)

Also - so kids can go back to school, generic school uniform items
(ie without your schools name on them), common items would include
tracksuit pants and tops (navy blue, green, maroon are common
colours), polo shirts ( eg navy and sky blue, green, yellow, white),
gray or navy shorts, school shoes in good condition, school dresses
(many primary schools have similar uniforms), even backpacks as some
of these kids will have lost everything.

********People wanting to find family and friends should call the
Red Cross Information line on 1800-727 077.******** ******

To donate blood call the Red Cross on 131 495

For donations of money please contact The Salvation Army or the Red

he National Australia Bank (NAB) has established a $1 million relief
fund for people and communities affected by Victoria's bushfires.

Donations to the fund can be made from Monday, February 9 at NAB
branches or by transferring funds using internet banking.

For assistance with wildlife (24 hours) call
1300 094 535 - Wildlife Victoria

If you would like to offer support to bushfire victims in the way of
accommodation or clothing please contact one of the following Shires

Alpine Shire

Baw Baw Shire
1300 859 446

Cardinia Shire
1300 787 634

City of Greater Bendigo
03 5447 2248

City of Horsham
03 5382 9794

Indigo Shire
03 5728 8000

Latrobe City
1800 017 777

Nillumbilk Shire
9438 5299

Yarra Ranges
1300 368 333

Murrindini Shire
03 5772 0333 (hotline for health advice, billet system etc)

Mitchell Shire
03 5734 6232

Wellington Shire
1300 137 218

Whittlesea Shire
9217 2170

Monday, February 2, 2009


Gosh, today sucked.

Like, really bad crap happened but really great stuff happened so cosmically, I guess that should cancel things out and it would really then kinda been BLAH instead.

The love of my life will be here soon. Yeah me!

But I still don't like my boss. Boo him.

Putting out good juju for a most excellent job. I am already SO lucky on all other fronts, it's the last piece to fit in my great big life puzzle. I know it's just around the corner, I can feel it.

So, this was really funny to me and this is just awesome since it means the Princess has more subjects in her kingdom.

So life is short...enjoy yourself!


Here's to a better day tomorrow.

Peace and Chicken Grease.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I miss you

Time stops when you are away

I miss the sound of the silence in my head when you are near

My heart mourns the beat of yours

My arms crave the place they rest, intertwined in yours when we are together


All this waiting

Makes me miss you more

Hurry back

US of Tara

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Monkey Speak

In the continuing adventures of Little Monkey, I learn she knows how to exit from a conversation she doesn't want to be in now both quickly and with really big words:

Queen: they are putting in hearing aids that are kind of like microphones for the ears, it will amplify sounds for him, does that make sense?

Little Monkey: Yes

Judgemental Monkey: Do you know how hearing works in your ear?

Little Monkey: Nope, but it sounds terribly scientific to me, blah, blah, blah.

(Car full of belly laughs.)

Speaking of Monkey Speak, say hi to Middle Monkey who is jumping in with both feet here in blogtopia. You will see her commenting here from time to time as Red Leader to illustrate how ridculously nerdy we are.

And the Oscar goes to...


Now I gotta start planning a party. As a shout out to my fellow nerds in the audience, go here for your printable list.

Peace out.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


Today is a great day for the world.

Just one of my new favorite quotes:

Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions — who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short. For they have forgotten what this country has already done; what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose, and necessity to courage.

I hope you watched or listened. If not, go read it now. Powerful stuff.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Sunday, January 11, 2009

It's Awards Season

We are a family of nerds (I have covered this before) and one of our favorite times of year is Golden Globes-Tony's-Oscar nights. Last Oscar party, the kids dressed to illustrate nominated movies (no I am not kidding). Here is just a taste, can you figure out the movies?

So tonight we are cheering for Mickey Rourke and Heath Ledger. It would be nice to see real performances, however uncomfortable, win. The Foreign Press is usually pretty good about it and it's so much better a show since everyone parties at the Golden Globes. Ricky Gervais just went on stage with his drink still in his hand. Good stuff!

IMDb is posting results live if you are so lame you aren't watching the show tonight...

Friday, January 9, 2009


I think everyone I know is using the first of this year in a similar way, assess, evaluate, create lofty aspirations of what is to come. I did something yesterday that became a topic of conversation in my circle and then branched out to others. While the idea that I had a ripple effect makes me feel, well, weird, maybe there is something to that so I thought I would share.

I am in a new relationship. Granted, it's with someone I have known a long time and we dated previously, but this is new. While much about us is still the same as it was 21 years ago, large parts of what has occurred in our lives since has defined who we are now. I am not sure that's the way it should be, but it's the way I think most people tend to end up. After a discussion with him about a recent visit we had, I started thinking about expectations. How we see things, what we imagine things will be like, what we hope for and if the reality ever really matches up. Also, I wondered, why do we not clearly define that for someone we are involved with? Have any of you sat down and written out a letter to tell your partner how to meet your needs? Unfortunately, I think that is the kind of thing that doesn't happen until you are in couples counseling and it's likely to be too late.

Well, I think that is fucking retarded.

Me, feeling all psychoanalytic, sat down and penned such a letter. I told him what I wanted to accomplish for myself this year. I spoke about the reasons I hadn't, what I have let other people influence and why it would be a good change for me. I explained where I hoped our relationship would go this year, how I see it growing, the things I am most looking forward to. I also said that my goal is to savor every single minute of it.

When I started, I meant it in an informative way, sort of a road map of what I am thinking, but it changed. After I sent it, I realized that I was filled with such an all encompassing love, like I had given it as a gift. I am not sure if that was really for him, or I, but it became something sacred.

Again I will ask you now:

Have you ever told a partner how to meet your needs?

Suddenly I found myself asking my friends this in conversation through out the afternoon and each of them seemed to have the same light bulb moment as I. How can anyone ever live up to what you want them to if you never give them a fucking clue of what you expect? I know I have always been real clear in my new relationships, this is what I want, this is what I can accept, this is what I can't, but the problem is, people will often nod their head and say "yes, me too, okay lets run off into the sunset together." Romantic at the time but hardly a solid foundation. And guess what?


What if you talk about things in the beginning but never revisit it? People grow and change. Did your expectations change? Do you want something different now than what you did when you first were so full of excitement and love? Did you bother to tell the person you were connected to that, hey, I have changed directions? Yeah, and we wonder how we end up so damn unhappy.

Heavy stuff if you really think about it. I am hoping by having honest and continuous discussions, I am able to build something real, something deep and life long. It seems to me at my old age, that is what love is really supposed to be.

Eh, but what do I know.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009



Enough said.


ME IN 2009: taking dance lessons, more cooking classes, fishing in Alaska, more time to write, enjoy my kids, running a half marathon, form a stellar relationship with an amazing partner.

YOU IN 2009: starting yet another marriage built on a great big pile of steamy lies and dishonesty

WOO HOO! ::STANDING UP CLAPPING AND CHEERING FOR YOU:: You go get 'em tiger! Gotta admire your steadfast determination to always be right in your own head.


So what, I'm still a rock star...

Pink - So What

I guess I just lost my husband
I don’t know where he went
So I’m gonna drink my money
I’m not gonna pay his rent
Ive got a brand new attitude, and I’m gonna wear it tonight
I’m gonna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight
Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight
Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight

So, So What I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t you need you
And Guess what
I’m havin more fun
Now that were down
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright
I’m just fine
And you’re a tool so
So What
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t want you tonight

Ugh Check my flow uhh
The waiter just took my table and gave it to Jessica Simpson
I guess Ill go sit with drum boy at least hell know how to hit
What if this flops on the radio, somebody’s gonna die!
I’m going to get in trouble, my ex will start a fight
Na na na na
He’s going to start a fight
We’re all going to get into a fight

So, So What I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t you need you
And guess what
I’m havin more fun
Now that were down
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright
I’m just fine
And you’re a tool so
So What
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t want you tonight

You weren’t fair
You never were
You want it all but that’s not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren’t fair, you let me fall

So, So What I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t you need you
And Guess what
I’m havin more fun
Now that were down
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright
I’m just fine
And you’re a tool so
So What
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t want you tonight

Pink Lyrics - So What Song Words

Song Words by Artist / Band : Pink
Lyrics Title : So What
Taken from Album : Shine
Writers : Pink, Max Martin, Shellback
Single Released : 15 August 2008 (UK)
Music Genre : Pop Rock

Monday, January 5, 2009

Why I Get Up In The Morning

I know what you are thinking. Really, you get up because of your job, your wonderful kids, your alarm clock. I swear, I have gotten up everyday for the last two and a half years because of this little ball of feline wonder. Meet Jack, son of the Devil Cat. This picture doesn't quite reflect how big his mouth really is. He is meowing in this picture...and no, I am not kidding. Yes, while normal people have cats that barely make a peep when they express their need for cat food or chasing birds in the back yard, Jack opens his mouth wide and sounds like he uses a bull horn. This is why I get up every morning. Because I don't have a fucking choice.


Okay, so I love him, that's why I keep him. But still. Damn he has a big mouth.

So much has graced the cyber pages, I thought I show you some interesting bits you may have missed with all your celebrating...

We ::sobbing:: said good bye to Bettie Page. The day I realized I was a Bettie rather than a Barbie was liberating. She will be missed but hopefully very ill-behaved women like us can keep her memory alive for generations to come.

You will be glad to be privy to the rant my family got on this subject. Eddie Murphy as the Riddler? UGH. I am PISSED OFF. I was so irritated about this story when I heard it on my local morning show that morning. Of course we all thought the role would go to Johnny Depp, which seemed like it would make sense in the way these newer films have been dark, but what the hell? AND Eddie is just too old, I am sorry. To make matters worse, after SWEARING they werent going to muck up the Bale Batman movies with a Robin, they have cast none other than the booze swilling, Walgreens loitering Shia Lebeouf. Now I already have to buy Shia in Indy roles and Transformer roles but who is his agent sleeping with that he now get associated with this franchise? BLECH. I think this is a scary direction to head, even if Christopher Nolan is still directing. Its being reported that Rachel Wiess is Catwoman which might work (she shouldn't have been left out of the most recent Mummy) but how they are going to avoid this looking like a Joel Schumaker fiasco is beyond me. If Eddie Murphy plays multiple roles in fat suits, thats it, I'm out and I am asking for the price of my ticket back.


And last but not least, for those of you that can never get enough Da Vinci Code (me for one).

And now, all about me...YEAH! ::jumps up and down clapping::'s 2009. I think I blinked and missed a lot of it. Time flies while you are having too much fun I guess. My NaNoWriMo effort got completely circumvented by work drama but I vow to try again this year. I will conquer that monster. The holidays went by way to fast with a healthy sprinkle of family drama, but that too is now fading as I look at it through the bottom of my glass. I generally fail to make resolutions because lets face it, resolutions fail. I try to look at this time of year as setting new intentions for my year. For whatever reason, that's what seems to work for me. This year, it was an easier list than ever:

1. Start a running program
2. Visit Alaska
3. Get my teaching certification
4. Run a half marathon
5. Cook more for my family
6. Enjoy the time more that I have with my growing-to-fast-teens
7. Take dancing lessons
8. Find time to write more
9. Schedule more time with friends, fit in family in what time is left

I could go on and on. Personal growth, better organizational skills, cooking classes and jumping out of the plane I didn't get to last year. But, I am trying to pace myself...LOL


(oh and just to make RandomRage crazy, I am back to changing my template!)